20.

Blah blah. Still sad.
SCIENCE CAMP TOMORROW!!!!

Be hones​t,​ who did you last text?
Dylan.




This time last year,​ can you remem​ber who you liked​?​
I was in my serious serious Tokio Hotel phase, so I didn't like anyone.




Two weeks​ from now this time,​ where​ will you be?
Right here.




Who was the first​ perso​n you talke​d to today​?​
Uh, Dad?



How late did you stay up last night​?​ Why?
I was sad. and I dont remember.





Do you smoke​ weed every​ day?
I don't smoke weed at all.







Could​ you go a month​ witho​ut cursi​ng?​
Sure.






Have you ever ridde​n a horse​?​
Nope.







What are you doing​?​
Packing.



Who was the last perso​n you cried​ in front​ of?
Dad.



You can only drink​ ONE liqui​d for the rest of your life,​ what is it?
Water.



Do you think​ you are a good perso​n?​
Yes





What will you be doing​ in 3 hours​?​
Crossings!




Do you miss the way thing​s used to be?
Nope



Would​ you ever live with anyon​e on your top frien​ds?​
Ehh, kinda.






Are you a patie​nt perso​n?​
Very.




Do you belie​ve in true love?​
Sure.





Have you ever stole​n a stree​t sign?​
Nope.



Do you think​ you can last in a relat​ionsh​ip for 3 month​s?​
Yes.






Do you prefe​r being​ in an actua​l relat​ionsh​ip?​
Yes.






What does it mean if your extre​mely quiet​?​
Mad or sad, or just nothing to say.






Who do you tell every​thing​ to?
Dylan



Have you ever had a reall​y big fight​ with a best frien​d?​
Nope.







Think​ a lot befor​e you fall aslee​p?​
Nope








Have you ever given​ a rando​m perso​n your numbe​r?​
Nope






What do you think​ your numbe​r two is doing​ right​ now?
Complaining.. lol!





What'​re you liste​ning to?
Nothing.






Whats​ your curre​nt mood?​
Sad.

22.

So I sit here, crying.
I don't know why, but I feel so undesappreciated, like I'm just a burden to everything and everyone. You may call me selfish, but really? What have I done? WHAT! All I do is do things for others, and when I say something, that I wanna do for myself, you call my selfish. I haven't done anything. I feel like I'm used by everyone and no one understands, because really whenever I talk to anyone about MY problems, for some reason, it always goes around and the topic goes back to them. Why can't there just be someone, who listens, I can't always rely on Dylan to be there 24/7 but I honestly feel like hes the only one, who cares, but it's so hard, since he's so far away.

I just wanna go away, and start life, and just no deal with this shit, because honestly what the fck have I done?

24.

Got started on applying for FAFSA. I'm not gonna be able to sign up for my online class until probably when I get back from Science Camp.

Are your friends virgins?
Some are, some aren't



What state do you always forget exists?
Some east coast ones.

Is there really one person in every group of friends that nobody likes?
Hmm, Nah. It's probably me.

If you had to be a teacher, which ones of yours would you most wanna be like?
Mr. D or Mr. Roy. haha.

What's the coolest last name you have ever heard of?
MINE!

Have you ever attempted to break a world record?
Nope.

Do you ever yell at the TV even though the people can't hear you?
Sometimes.



Do you live in a place where cow-tipping is popular?
Nope.

Which country's accent drives you the craziest?
Nothing drives me insane.

What's the name of the grocery store closest to your house?
Hmm, Savemart?


Do you think shows like The Hills are really "unscripted?"?
Nope.

Which phone network has the best commercials?
Dont watch TV often.

If you could spell your name any way, how would you spell it?
same as I spell it now.


Have you ever experienced a snow day?
Nope.


Think of the people you know.


Who is most likely to star in a porno?
Uh, Idk, Edison?



What's the craziest thing you've ever done in a drive thru?
Walk through it.


Whats the most embarrassing thing you've done in front of a crush?
Hmm, there are a lot of moments, but it's whatever.

Have you ever trashed a hotel room?
I'm not rich enough.

Is there a game you always love to play when you're on long road trips?
Nope.

Have you ever actually seen someone get stuck in a locker?
The lockers at our school are too small.

Do you think that you will still have your same myspace when you're 40+?
I don't know, not planning on it though.


Do you prefer using self-checkout at stores?
Sometimes.


Why do people buy songs off iTunes when they can use Limewire for free?
So they give the benefit to the artists that work hard.

Do you think you have to be a virgin to wear white at your wedding?
WHAT?

What do you think of people who work at Hooters?
Nothing.


In your contacts list, do you use people's names or give nicknames?
Names.

Which company/organization has the coolest logo?
uh, Haven't noticed.



Do you know the words to any other national anthem besides your own country's?
Philippines.

Do you think snowflake shaped Ritz crackers taste better?
Never tried it.

Did you lose your virginity in your own bed?
ololol.


What was your first alcoholic beverage?
I think it was wine.

How old were you when you first smoked weed?
Never done it.

Have you ever lived with your girlfriend/boyfriend?
Nope, that'd be cool though.

Have you ever taken someone back after they've cheated?
Ehh, depends.

Have you ever thought about killing someone in detail?
Yes hahaha.


Have you ever peed while on the phone?
Yes hahah


What do you have pierced on you?
My ears.

What do you have tattooed on you?
Nope.


Do you own porn?
Nope.


What reality shows do you watch?
Yeah haha.


Are you taller than your mom?
Nope.

Vegetable?
I like.

What are you planning on doing after filling this out?
Shower.

Have you dated anyone from online?
Somewhat.


What would happen if you had a baby with the last person you kissed?
Cute shit.

Do you sleep on your stomach?
Nope.

Have you ever broken someone’s heart?

Idk.

Next time you will kiss someone?
March.

Have you ever injected a drug?
Nope.


When was the last time you felt like your heart was actually breaking?
Hmm.. Summer?


Do you get along better with the same sex or opposite?
Opposite.


Have you ever kissed someone whose name started with a B?
Nah.

Are you happy with your life at the the moment?
Yes


What is something you disliked about your day?
I got mad.


Your current relationship status?
:)


Have you ever liked somebody and never told them?
Yeah, but whatever.

Do you currently hate someone?
Somewhat, but I'll get over it, if she does.


Would you ever dye your hair blonde?
I did once.



Have you ever gotten sunburn so badly it hurt to move?
Nah.

What is bothering you right now?
Nothing much.



Have you ever read an entire book in one day?
Nope.

If you could move to Africa would you?
Nope.

What do you have to do tomorrow?
Pack for science camp!

What were you doing at 9 this morning?
Just waking up.

What movie would you recommend everyone see?
Theres a lot.


Where do you want to go from here?
Idk.

Do you always answer your texts?
Only to him.

Sex with more than 25 people?
Nope.


What's the last song you listened to?
Im yours.


Did you sleep in past noon today?
Nope.

Talked to an ex lately?
WHO?

Did you do anything stupid today?
Not yet.

If you could have something right now, what would it be?
Be with him, and pause time.

Do you want someone back in your life?
Nah.


How is the weather right now?
It's nice.



Last thing you had to drink?
Water?


Is anything annoying you right now?
Yes.

What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?
Online.

Is this year the best year of your life?
Last year was, so far.



Is this summer gonna be a good one?
YES. YES YES YES.

Are you trying to avoid liking/loving somebody?
Nope, I'm very happy that I like this person.

Does it take a lot to make you cry?
Nah haha.


Are you satisfied with what you currently have in life?
Yes.


Who is the last person you talked on the phone with?
Dylan.

25.

I don't know what the fuck to think, I'm just a bunch of mixed emotions right now, well the period is coming soon, so I guess it's right. I'm being such a procrastinator, and I think thats bad. I need to get started on DeAnza shit, but really, I haven't had the time. I need to apply for financial aid, and all that bull. Really though, I'm so sick of everything, I need to get away. Hopefully spring break, everything is how I want it to be, I convince my parents onw hat I want to do, and how I want it to be, because you know what? Its my senior year spring break, and its like a 3 week spring break too. So Yeah, I need to do my FAFSA app, and everything, like I honestly dont know what the fuck is going on with any of that. Blah blah blah.

On the positive side though, I got to talk to myboy, and I'm really excited to just be alone with him, in some way :)


Like someone?
Very Much.


Annoyed?
A bit.


What are you doing?
Sitting on my bed.


Favorite Show?
Don't have one anymore.

Favorite Color?
Don't have a specific one.


Favorite Shoes?
My sandals.

Everyday Shoe?
My Sandals. If good weather.

Favorite Store?
Forever 21, H&M, and Urban, If I can afford.


Everyday Activity?
Uh, nothing, ahaha everyday is different in a way.


Miss Anyone?
Yes, :)

Last Kissed?
Jan 18.

Consumed last?
Spicy Tuna.

Favorite everyday clothing?
Hmm, Just a plain shirt and some leggings.


Favorite Sport?
None.


Your daily beverage?
I miss nestea. and C2


Favorite Fastfood?
Tough one, no fave.

Favorite food besides your own Race or American?
Mexican.

Passion?
He's cute.


Goals?
Finish up high school then lets start LIFE.

Relationship Status?
:)

Anxious?
For March.

Mood?
Whatever.


Looking forward to?
Seeing him, SUMMER, College


Would you kiss the last person you kissed?
Yes yes yes.

Favorite Hat?
Beanie.


Favorite Sports team?
None.


Favorite Song?
Monsoon.


Doing tomorrow?
V.Fair, and party, not my ideal day.

33.

I need to stop lying.