95.

I'm stupid, and I forgot my password to my old one, so I start a new one. Yes. New one. For a new year anyway, It's a must. There are so many things that are going on in my mind, I feel that I should really get back to putting my emotions somewhere. This past week has been the best and worst of my life. The beginning was pure bliss, including being with him, and seeing Tokio Hotel. What a combo, right? I tried to soak up the time that I had, but as usual, I thought that it wasn't enough. So now, I'm sitting here on a Friday, just moping around, but what more can I do? Having him constantly texting makes me miss him so much more..but I like it, so I always respond, and sometimes I spark the text conversation. Everything just happened in such horrible timing, but maybe it happened this way for a reason. Hopefully this distance just makes the relationship we have stronger. I'm counting down until the day we see each other again, November 25 if all goes right, which is today 95 days until then. I need to learn how to unattach myself. He's just so great that I don't even know if that's possible.

But anyway, school is starting up again on Monday. I'm very very uneasy about the whole situation. I feel as if I'm completely disconnected from anyway in my school, besides Ana. I don't have a solid group anymore, and I have so much more responsibility. I love the power, but who the hell will I share it with? Being a senior and all, I should be excited to do the things I've been looking forward to for the past 3 years, but surprisingly I'm not. I am just eager to graduate already. My views have changed since school ended. I would just like to start a new life already. But hopefully this year isn't what I'm expecting, and that I'm distracted throughout the year so I'm not unhappy. I hope that my friends will be there for me, because I honestly don't know what emotion I'm feeling at all. I shouldn't be stressed because my schedule is damn easy.


I'm praying and hoping for the best for the upcoming 3 months.